
“I was trying to feel uncertain.”
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“I was trying to feel uncertain.”
Pull your hair back a little bit.
Back up just a hair.
Chin up a touch.
It’s not a smile word
Whoops focus there
we go What’s that
questioning here
I was trying to feel
uncertain maybe I was
trying too……………
you’ve gotta sort of look
away you don’t want to
make it blast out wrong mood
people always when they’re defensive
cover their chest back a little more
drop your paper
where it was don’t blink
hook your thumb
crossing your
yeah
spread your feet a little more
on the side though
quite read enough of it
change your arm
position again
straight into me
profile……
crush your arms
that’s more natural
don’t blink
drop the hand
no don’t drop it
nice
looking at me
come back
with your face to me
lean over your shoulder
toward me
let the paper hang straight
I have an idea
behind your leg a little
go over and grab the paper
so we can read it
now fix your shirt
focus yep
yep
yep
nice
don’t blink
I need to find
something
this camera can
focus………
top center point
skin and the gray
try your arm up
like that let’s try
a couple like these
let me……………………..
see a little more finger
ok relax a second what’s
your idea more of a portrait
or you would have
it wasn’t really a
paper wrapped around
her leg too obvious
here’s my sign
you can barely read
can I see what you’re looking for

photo: © 2009 Bill Hayward
Uncertainty
Pull your shirt down. Chin up. Cock your head to one side
or another. Come around a little. Shirt down. Hand on
your hips. Do you have pockets. Drop that hand
down. Walk around a second loosen
up. It’s not a smile word. It’s not serious
or matter-of-fact. What’s that. More
matter-of-fact again. Chin up
a hair again. It’s all about questioning
here. Let me try to act like I feel it.

photo: © 2009 Jason Riker, Riker Productions
it is
not the same
dance
we have
repeated
ourselves
the floor recalls
prior gestures
we trace
the horse
mounted
by a piece
of straw
wet eye
continued
except
the dance
who
they are
this before
have lost
the ground
shaped
ourselves
uncertain arms
only lifted
touching
barely
the dance
changes
don’t mean nothing
practice is performance
done with love
kick yr face
& turn
is a
co
m
mit
ment
got my changing clothes
likely misheard
makeup move
improvisation with

photo: © 2009 Jason Riker, Riker Productions
were moved
related move
the word move
slide off
move together apart
discover other
alone
before he arrives
she knows
movement depends
how to hold
the body is a relationship
the sound of the refrigerator being on
43 ducks flying through glass
a hell where people are happy
waiting for someone to come
they would not want
alone/together
if you see me see me
walking
the screen dances also
when together
when alone
moving between
the dance tells itself they tell the dance tells itself they tell themselves the dance
they use their sweat for emphasis
when aren’t we acting
applause is moving hands

you think you want that and then

we only had so much time
…
without us knowing
…
I’m going surfing on a sea of paper
…
Is that your book?
What’s left of it.
Soon I will start flying around Times Square